A quote from Brennan Manning... "The seldom-stated truth is that many of us have a longing for God and an aversion to God. Some of us seek Him and flee Him at the same time."

Oddly, this sums up my heart, my longing, my lonliness, my choices, my fears, my pain, my sin, my joy, my growth, and many other things probably for the season of my life from about 2005-2008 for me....and it may still linger.